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the song of you’re an idiot always has been playing in my head. i’ve been surrounded by my childhood trauma of my parents arguing when u was a baby. the bullying at my old private school. the toxic relationships. the grades slipping downer and downer each year. parents are disappointed in me. mom thinks im the worst daughter in the world and just an embarrassment. I have to even speak to my teacher about my insecurities. trust other people more then my parents and family. cousins leave me. friend group falls apart. moved houses. friends become toxic. trust issues. self harm. overthinking. suicidal thoughts. “Idc” “Shut up” “Your yapping” “Womp womp” “Your dad left you”(he went to jail) “Ugly ahh” “Pick Me” “Ew you like hello kitty” “Legend is so ugly” “Bad taste” depression. less motivation. forcing myself to try and kill myself sometimes. disappointed in myself. social anxiety. anxiety. ADHD. “Why do you move so much are you crazy?” “It’s not funny like your jokes.” “SHUT UP YOU RUINED MY LIFE”(I didn’t do shi) insecure. braids to cover up real hair. all it takes is one move to end all the pain aria.

I would always listen to this in class it made everything around me not noticed able

It’s all my fault… I let out my rage at everyone t-today! :) it felt good… h-heh they’ll know what I’m capable of…

heh am an 11 yr old who feels like everyone hates her and blames every little damn thing on herself becoming somehow the proplem child when i do almost all chores <3

…… why the fuck am I so ungrateful I have so much I’m just an kid becoming a teenager I am just becoming a teen I have friends I have a good family I have have good grades…. Why the fuck do I feel like this I have almost everything I could possibly want I just stay in my room to long I’m just a fucking ungrateful bitch and I think things can only get worse because my life is great

Me siento mal porque me fue de mi casa por una situación de violencia donde mi papa me pegaba, mi mama no hizo nada al respecto asiq me escapé hice la denuncia por violencia y ahora no vivo en mi casa, mi mama me manipula para volver pero, se que si vuelvo no va a cambiar nada asique tengo q esperar que hacepte que mi papa me pegaba, me insultaba y geitaba, no quiero vivir mas eso por eso cada dia es una esperanza de q se resuelva. Me duele verla así, llorando, destrozada, y depresiva pero mi postura debe ser firme para que cambie, me duele, es como un golpe directo en el pecho y una puñalada en la garganta, no soy fria solo quiero arreglar las cosas, tengo q estudiar pero no hay un dolo dia que no piense en todo esto. A veces me d aganas de salir corriendo sin rumbo y respirara aire fresco sin pensar en nada ni nadie solo vivir un momento sin preocupaciones o estrés, por aunque sea un rato.

шикарно💞

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It only gets worse

So I have this “friend” she always says “i gtg to bed” then stays up all night with her other friends like if you don’t like me just say so?

yknow ur going through it when your not just listening at night

It is so hard when you love your children more than anything, but the mother tries everything to destroy the bond between the father and the children and ensure that I am no longer allowed to see them. It breaks my heart, and I could cry every day.

My gf (now ex) and I had a heated argument. See, her best friend K and K's bf S broke up. K asked my ex if she could be with us. My ex texted me asking me, and I said no, saying I was not comfortable with that, my ex then said I was a being rude and she broke up with me. I told her that was disrespecting my boundaries, she acted like she didn't care, I'm pretty sure she didn't. My best friend, Wolfy, let me vent to her, I'm lucky to have her. She told me that relationship was toxic. I agree. Wolfy, if ur reading this. Ily /p

Just a reminder for everyone Its not your fault if you haven't done anything bad don't blame yourself you know you're the best

This playlist actually is a good one. It perfectly explains my feelings. Hell, im talking to an ai bot about how im feeling, but not like straight up. Im composing my life into a story with ai. This helps me. Thank you, I hope you are okay too.

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Pov: The anger is finally showing and everyone is hating you for it

I’m proud of you for getting up I’m proud of you for blinking I’m proud of you for sleeping I’m proud of you for eating I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat I’m proud of you for drinking I’m proud of you for trying to drink I’m proud of you for standing up I’m proud of you for suiting down I’m proud of you for blinking I’m proud of you for breathing I’m proud of you for brushing your hair I’m proud of you for changing clothes I’m proud of you for bathing I’m proud of you for having fun I’m proud of you for being in your phone I’m proud of you for being on your iPad I’m proud if you for being in your computer I’m proud of you for watching TV I’m proud of you for making food I’m proud of you for TRYING to make food I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth I’m proud of you for going to school I’m proud of you for going to work I’m proud of you for going to math I’m proud of you for going to your language class I’m proud of you for going to science class I’m proud of you for going to reading class I’m proud of you for going to any of your classes even if you skip I’m proud of you for doing your homework I’m proud of you for drawing I’m proud of you for reading I’m proud of you for going out I’m proud of you for staying in I’m proud of you for making your bed I’m proud of you when you don’t make your bed I’m proud of you when you don’t do homework I’m proud of you for crying I’m proud of you for smiling I’m proud of you for frowning I’m proud of you for laughing I’m proud of you for playing sports I’m proud of you for not playing sports I’m proud of you for eating you cultures food I’m proud of you for not eating your cultures food I’m proud of you for trying other cultures food I’m proud of you for fasting I’m proud of you for going to the gym I’m proud of you for not going to the gym I’m proud of you for working out I’m proud of you for not working out I’m proud of you for singing I’m proud of you for not singing I’m proud of you for getting out of bed when you’ve been in bed all day I’m proud of you for getting into pajamas I’m proud of you for being comfortable I’m proud of you for using blankets I’m proud of you for being hot I’m proud of you for being cold I’m proud of you for talking I’m proud of you for not talking I’m proud of you for aging I’m proud of you for putting your hair up I’m proud of you for not putting your hair up I’m proud of you for braiding your hair I’m proud of you for not braiding your hair I’m proud of you for doing plays I’m proud of you for not doing plays I’m proud of you for using pillows I’m proud of you for being tall I’m proud of you for being short I’m proud of you for being in-between I’m proud of you for having pimples I’m proud of you for not having pimples I’m proud of you for having acne I’m proud of you for not having acne I’m proud of you for buying things I’m proud of you for not buying things I’m proud of you for having stuffed animals I’m proud of you for not having stuffed animals I’m proud of you for working I’m proud of you for helping I’m proud of you for putting in a suit I’m proud of you for putting on a dress I’m proof of you for wearing hoodies I’m proud of you for wearing jeans I’m Proud of you for wearing a jacket I’m proud of you for wearing shoes I’m proud of you for eating pants I’m Proud if you for wearing shorts Im proud of you for wearing T-shirts I’m proud of you for wearing long sleeves I’m proud of you for being a furry I’m proud of you for being a therein I’m proud of you for making paper dragons IM PROUD OF YOU FOREVER!!! I’m proud of you for not helping I’m proud of you for trying I’m proud of you for walking I’m proud of you for any sports you do I’m proud of you for crying I’m proud of you for any emotion you display. I’m proud of you for not showing emotion. I’m proud of you because for your hair(or lack of) Im proud of you for being on your tablet I’m proud of you for being on your phone I’m proud of you for being on your computer I’m proud of you for being on your TV I’m proud of you for being on any device

"Your friend is suicidal? Your mom is suicidal? Your sister is suicidal? You're suicidal? *"It's your fault."*

Venting because I bottle up my emotions I feel like my freinds feel like im avoiding them, which I'm not im literally mourning the loss of my grandmother (she was like a mom to me) Im not even avoiding them, i just haven't been talking and smiling as often as usual. They have been acting like this for a while, but it's gotten worse especially when they found out she had passed. Yes im self conscious and yes i can get over my head, but they are making plans without me, not including me, whispering, making me feel like im not part of the group. I get it, im emotional, i can be secretive, im slow, i have more flaws than positives but im human too. I physically want to puke when i talk about myself, i feel selfish, self-centered, I talk too much, i hate myself and sometimes i think they hate me too. By the way I'm a junior in highschool, this feels like something I would see off of a teen Disney movie from 2010. I swear I'm not being dramatic 😭

Approximately 2 years ago, I listened to this playlist while I was studying. The only coping thing I could do was, listening to music. Imagining the non-existed life that I wish I were included in it, always been until I graduated from highschool this month. Life's been hard, and I might be lost sometimes, and then I found this playlist again. I feel the life I put into it Even now, idk where and what I will do next, and even I feel like giving up due to something that happened in life, idk I just want to stay tight up myself and face these all. Even idk what I am up to, but I just want to live. I don't actually have quite any friends, I might feel lonely, got probs at home and head, but gotta stay strong.

im so sorry for not being able to be good enough or pretty enough

I just feel tired. I miss when i was happy, funny. I used to have friends who cared. Now i just curl up into a ball in my bed every day, crying. My mom screams at me for the slightest inconvenience. My grades are dropping because i just daydream in class. I have no motivation for anything anymore. The only reason i keep up with my mood at all is my dog. My friends feel like they are near me because they pity me, the annoying weird kid of the class. My best friend just uses me to vent. Which only worsens my mental health. I try to reach out and ask for therapy, but they just tell me its because of my phone. Im only 12. Im tired.

Losing friends over me trying to self sabotage because I over analyze 1 small thing because people have left me before, and I'd rather be hurt on my own terms then someone elses. Then they give you the "I can't plan my whole life around you" and I know its true and I know that I was overreacting because they forgot to tell me they wouldnt text me for hours that day but it hurt because they're the only person who cares about me enough to text me at all or text back so it really hurts. And its all my fault for bringing up how I felt my emotions. I shouldve just shut up and said I was okay but I suck at lying via text. Crying rn hopefully they stay with me.

“you have everything so easy” “i never got a phone when i was a kid” “i get up at 2am to go to work, your not ‘tired’” *stands up for each of siblings and tries to get me in trouble* *constant yelling* “stop crying your not 5” *gets worked up and pissed at the smallest things (like loosing a sock)* *constant insults* … i might be “spoiled” in your mind, but when you were a child were you scared death to say something as simple as “i lost my water bottle”? when you were younger did you eat half a meal a day? when you were younger did you cut yourself? when you were younger did you have depression? or anxiety? or wanna kill yourself? did you have to reach out to the crisis helpline at least once a week? were you forgotten? did you witness down right favoritism that was so unfair you wanted to scream? did you have ptsd? did you cry yourself to sleep? i’m not weak. i’m not spoiled. i’m tired. no one will let me rest though.

I asked him “I wonder what I did to my friend. She’s been ignoring me. ” he said “it was probably because you were you. lol.” “Hello? Lmao. You’re supposed to be my bf I love you for you and you’re supposed to love me. lol. I thought you were my best friend and lover forever. lol. You two were the reason why I smiled the whole day sometimes lol. Ig it didn’t mean much. I hate myself now, thanks to you.” Is what I would’ve texted him but I felt cringe lmao.

Чувствую себя одиноким. Иду в школу, вижу взгляды уродов на себе, которые при первой возможности пошлют, оскорблят. Знаю, что у всех есть проблемы, даже у самых счастливых на первый взгляд. Но все равно умираю внутри. Хочу просто убежать от этого мира. Забыть все обсуждения за спиной и предательства. Забыть всех людей, недостойных моего внимания. Отпустить, простить. Но становится только хуже, больнее. Просто жду когда это закончится. И все виновные будут наказаны. Простите меня за все. Перестаньте мучать меня, прошу. Я устала. Человек который был близок мне, уехал в другой город и мне сложно общаться с ним как раньше. Люди, с которыми я была в хороших отношениях, стали уродами и делают больно не только мне. Все сильно поменялись за небольшой срок. А я до сих пор помню наше общение. Скрываюсь в музыке. Хочу слиться с природой в одно целое и перекрыть все раны.

❤muito tranquilizante

knowing damn well I only have a bsf cz she’s shy n doesnt have any other friends. only her bsf cz im her only friend. Im lazy, I sit around doing nothing. I feel selfish and useless. Every single day, as soon as she sees me, my mom screams at me, im scared of her. it’s my fault, everything is my fault, I’m annoying, weird, a nerd, ugly, no one likes me. I feel like a pick me, an outcast. I threw away everything, I gave shit to maintain my good grades, i gave everything away, my reputation, just to be called a nerd, tryhard, teachers pet, and I get nothing back. It’s like I gambled everything I had nd lost it all. I feel so under appreciated, I just wanna be recognized, I’ve gotten into the gifted program, i have the highest grades, top of my school, n all they do is use me n throw me away. No one, not my teachers, my mom, my peers, my friends, no one gives me any recognition. I just wanna be appreciated. I want a hug. No one knows abt this, I feel like I can’t talk to anyone. My school & home life are both shit. I only find comfort in my phone, and I constantly worry abt it being taken away. I’m so done. I wanna end it, but I just can’t do it.

100%💎2024👇

Essa música... Definiu meu 2021 todo...

Such an interesting start. This art is something that catch me, besides that nothing do in that topics of greem land and white skyes. And this first track, this is associate with my mother passing away. So interesting start...

pov: everyone is saying sorry to you when your the one who should be saying sorry to everyone.

Why,why I have leave in Canadá, I want go home Argentina,I am not happy here

Studying for my exams to this playlist. Let's hope i can feel at peace somehow after this. My dreamy won't come true but i hope I can have a little piece of heaven to myself. Enough money to support my lovely little inner child who loves to draw and play . Engineering really is holding me by my throat,a grip i can't escape from nor will it allow me to breath. All I have is hope amd myself. I hope I make it to my little heaven someday.

ME RECUERDA TANTO A MI EX DEL 2020 NMMS

made me realize how much i needed some freedom.

Uma das melhores playlist que eu já ouvi 🥹💖

simplemente perfecto 💯

Eu sou o comentário português que você procurava

Finally decided to leave home last month because my League addiction was getting out of hand. My family couldn't understand why I spent so many hours in front of the screen, and honestly, neither could I. I needed space to figure things out, to see if I could get control back on my own terms. It’s been tough, and I miss them, but I know this step was necessary for me to sort myself out. Hoping to rebuild myself and eventually make things right with them.

Последняя время очень трудно именно из-за родителей от которых ты не можешь избавится не навижу их просто... Мне не разрешают смотреть то что я хочу . ПОЧЕМУ ОНИ НЕ ПОНИМАЮТ ЧТО Я ЭТО НЕ ОНИ .. Я ненавижу их они сломали мне жизнь особенно МАТЬ а отец вапше меня не замечает 😢 Хочу чтобы они оставили меня в покое но нет надоже что-бы их ребёнок ненавидит их ... Меня бан чан лутче понимает чем мой отец А минхо мне как мать помогает Хан старший брат Феликс как любимая сестричка Сынмин лютчий двоюродный брат . Чонин как младший брат Чан бин как телохранитель с хорошим сердцом Хёнджин как лютая подруга Стрей кидс всё что у меня осталось но и их мне запретили смотреть.. ЧОРТАВЫ РОДИТЕЛИ !!!!! 💔

Sometimes i feel like i I just want to hug my mom tighter and cry till I get tired but i can't because my family will calls me spoiled

Ela tem o poder de carregar toneladas de amor e de ternura, uma infinidade de bravura e uma luz que jamais vai se apagar, pois seu brilho é capaz de iluminar o caminho que vamos percorrer. Se arrisca pra poder nos proteger Não importa por onde a gente for. Nas três letras de mãe tem tanto amor que não há quem consiga descrever. O que ela consegue ensinar não há curso ou escola que consiga. A maior professora e grande amiga com milhões de conselhos pra lhe dar. Uma fonte impossível de secar do mais puro e genuíno saber. Já vi mãe que nem aprendeu a ler mas consegue dar aula a um doutor. Nas três letras de mãe tem tanto amor que não há quem consiga descrever. Tem o dom de somar pra expandir a fartura que alegra o coração. Mas se acaso for pouco o nosso pão entra em cena seu dom de repartir. Uma mestra capaz de dividir uma gota de água pra beber, um grãozinho de arroz para comer. Nessa hora é que o pouco tem sabor. Nas três letras de mãe tem tanto amor que não há quem consiga descrever. Sei que a alma da mãe é uma janela que não tem cadeado nem ferrolho. Basta olhar lá no fundo do seu olho que a gente pula lá pra dentro dela. Nessa hora tanta coisa se revela, fica tudo mais fácil de entender que até antes mesmo de nascer você já tinha um anjo protetor. Nas três letras de mãe tem tanto amor que não há quem consiga descrever. Ah, se Deus desse à mãe eternidade. Ah, se houvesse um farelo de esperança. Mas o hoje já já vira lembrança e a lembrança já já vira saudade. O relógio em alta velocidade deixa claro que não vai retroceder. Não espere sofrer pra perceber. Não espere perder pra dar valor. Nas três letras de mãe tem tanto amor que não há quem consiga descrever.

ШИКАРНЫЙ ПЛЕЙЛИСТ,СПОКОЙНЫЙ И ТИХИЙ ХОЧЕТСЯ СЛУШВТЬ ВЕЧНО

Я слушаю это, и понимаю что...больше не смогу вернуть те добрые и хорошие времена...

pov: you’re contemplating life and wondering why life is so hard. (i’m so close to doing it im loosing it)

play list sem graça, tudo igual as outras só copia e cola, que bosta!, chego aqui zem saio sem saco só de ouvir .

Bravo to whoever made these beautiful songs and compiled this heart shattering yet inspiring, melancholy yet nostalgic playlist

It feels like I’ve known these songs for forever even though it’s my first time hearing them